NaPoWriMo #14: Mental Twist

There is a pain



a twist inside



I don’t understand



buried deep within



I can feel it now



almost as if it were



hidden in the shadows



amongst tiny crevices



yet its twisted and creeps up



through my heart



spiraling, tingling



a hurtful sensation



physically sick





“Anxiety, they tell me



Calm your nerves.”



I can’t - -



I don’t understand why



I thought my life was going great



I thought I was easy going,



Even optimistic



What do you mean, I’m not?





“Medication, that’s what you need



Then it will go away



You’ll function again.”



I try, but it’s strange



and new - -



Actually, I can’t think



I feel



numb



Perhaps before I could



feel



but I’m forgetting about



before



All I know is



I just hurt - -





There is a pain



A twist inside



I don’t understand.